why should I go there?

I am here not to give any excuse, not to insult others, not to regain the faith. I am here to state some facts and to clear some doubts you may have about me and my family.

Its fact that I was the person who initiatated all these. Probably it was 19th or 20th August 2008 when I approached Sree. I approached her because I noticed some purity in her while I talked with her in different places at Malda and/or Faraka. She was lucid, intelligent and somehow intersting. I approached and she was surprised and advised to let these things upto our parents. I agreed. I asked my ma whether she would talked to you or not. She without thinking anything called you and the rest is known to every body.

Everything was perfectly right at its own place except some apparently annoying outside disturbances. In the mean time you were about to be transferred to other state and it was cancelled or otherwise settled. Good news!

I was the person who continuously argued to transfer Sree to Malda College. Every one was apparently or silently against me. I could not said loudly why I wanted her at Malda College. Because already I was aware about some thing which was totally against my belief and imagination.

( I could not complete this post due to some unknown reasons, probably I was emotionally broken, may be, may not be, however, I'm publishing this in anticipation that it will let me understand myself after a long time when nothing will be important... when I will become udaasin, in true sense...)