Udaasin...

An explanation... a different perspective... and that made all the differences...

sometime, I felt sorry... sometime, I want to beg apology... sometime, I want to forgive... sometime, I wish to forget... sometime, I feel anger... sometime, I feel me-self...

... indifferent...

























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Bodh... redifining meself...

Probably, this poem describes best the thoughts, the words which are randomly disturb me... destruct me... construct me...

after a long time, in a distant future, this may introduce myself with 'the then' me-self!

a little patience... to the last...

Tum logon ki, iss duniya mein
Har kadam pe, insaan galat...

Main aisa hi samaj ke jo bhi kahoon...Tum kehte ho galat!

...main galat hoon phir kaun sahi?

Marzi se jeene ki bhi main... kya tum sabko main arzi doon!

Matlab ki tum sabka mujhpe ... mujhse bhi zyada haq hai ?



Thanks Irshad Kamil (lyricist)... these lines gave me a second thought...

Memory

saye... saye... beetey dino ke saaye gehre ...wo lot aaye..
laye... laye... sehra ke jaaye, rukhe zasbaat sath laye…

patjhado mein jhad gayi hai apni har khushi ...
zehar saasein phookti hai har pal bebasi .

khush rang si subha,khush bhari sabaa
tohfe mein de rakhi thi humko zindagine ...
kyu waqt bewajah, unhe cheen legaya
zehmat bhi na ki sochne ki, ye kisi ne ...

raakh hue hai jwal ke hmare ghonsle ...
chot khaye ...jakhmi hai ...saare honsle…
kyu na gire paate naye fir chaanaro pe
hum nadiyan kyu na bhare daraaro pe
khush rang si subha,khush bhari sabaa

tohfe mein de rakhi thi humko zindagine
kyu waqt bewajah, unhe cheen legaya
zehmat bhi na ki sochne ki, ye kisi ne
waqt bewajah, unhe cheen lagaya
zehmat bhi na ki sochne ki, ye kisi ne, kisi ne…

(Singer: Rekha Bharadwaj & Mohan
Producer: Sanjay Suri, Onir
Director: Onir
Music: Amit Trivedi,Vivek Philip,Rajiv Bhalla
Lyricist: Amitabh Varma,Amitabh Bhattacharya
Release Date: 29-04-2011)

Futile...

Natbar, O Dear Natbar,

let us have a different taste of life...

let us enjoy some gloomy words...

let us stare on some murkier thoughts...

let us look back to the never-to-be-forgotten...

let us enjoy the "walk of life" in our very own way....

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They say love is just a game...
They say time can heal the pain...
Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose...
And I guess I am just a fool, I keep holding on to you.

I told you once you were the one...
You know that I'd die for you!
Although it hurts to see you go...
Oh, this time you should know, I won't try to stop you!

Don't you forget about me,
Don't you forget about me now...
Some day you'll turn around and ask me
Why did I let you go?

So you try to fake a smile
You don't wanna break my heart...
I can see that you're afraid...
But baby it's too late, b'coz I'm already dying...


Wherever I go, I won't forget about you, no, no, no...
Wherever you go, don't you forget about me...

(Creation of ENRIQUE IGLESIAS - DON'T YOU FORGET ABOUT ME
Copied from MetroLyrics.com )

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Here comes Johnny singing oldies, goldies...
Be-Bop-A-Lula, Baby What I Say?

Here comes Johnny, singing 'I Gotta Woman'...
... down in the tunnels, trying to make it pay...
... he got the action... he got the motion!
...Oh Yeah the boy can play
...Dedication... devotion!

Turning all the night time into the day...

And after all the violence and double talk...
There's just a song in all the trouble and the strife...
You do the walk, you do the walk of life, yeah he do the walk of life...

(its a copy from the creation of Dire Straits)

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You called me from the room in your hotel
All full of romance for someone that you met
And telling me how sorry you were, leaving so soon
And that you miss me sometimes when you’re alone in your room
Do I feel lonely too?

You have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind
We can’t go on just holding on to time
Now that we’re living separate lives

Well I held on to let you go
And if you lost your love for me, well you never let it show
There was no way to compromise
So now we’re living (living)
Separate lives

Ooh, it’s so typical, love leads to isolation
So you build that wall ...
Yes, you build that wall ...
And you make it stronger!

Well you have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind
Some day I might find myself looking in your eyes...
But for now, we’ll go on living separate lives...
Yes for now, we’ll go on living separate lives... Separate lives!

(yaap its another copy of Phil Collins - Separate Lives ) .

KAALA BANDER....

Natbar, dear Natbar... after a long time I am having a great feeling to write something...

... something totally nonsense... but you know now-days I am loosing all my creativity ... my thinkings are not taking rest but my hands are unable to type or write ... my mind is on its way to rambling thoughts ... but my eyes are not cooperating me... however, I am pasting here some lines (originally creation of Prasoon Joshi, and I think he will not lodge a GD regarding Copy Right Violation... sorry Joshi, I just listened and tried to remember the lines and using to give a message to my dear Natbar ... probably I don't have other fatal intention... by the way, I like these lines... )

hey kaala kaala kaala bandar
bahar hai ya andar
hey kaala kaala kaala bandar
jo dhoondhe sikander…

it wasnt’t me i swear
everybody’s looking for the monkey out there

aao hum sheeshaa dekhe...

usmein mein sandeshaa dekhein... apanaa ghaayal hisaa dekhein...
apanaa asli kissaa dekhein...

ghunghat ki gehraayi mein... phan phailaaye kaun hai... jhak safed libaason mein...
kaala sa sach maun hai...

( why are you not able to reveal all the black truth of yours and then face the life ... at least you will have no secret to keep safe)

i heard he’s two feet tall and bites off your knees

i heard he’s hot metal teeth and wears superman briefs
that makes sense i saw him flying last week
he was invisible some one saw some movement in the trees

i heard he’s an experiment gone wrong(baby voice)
a monkey alein that’s been left in the sun too long
i heard he’s a cyborg…..
you’re right!

made from parts of a toaster and a nuclear bomb
but who’s actually seen him….nobody
this all seems a little bit dodgy

saarey reeti riwaz hata kar
dekho apne ghar ke andar
shayad kahin kisi kone mein
oongh raha hai kaala bandar

in galion main rang hain kitne...

( I am becoming tired of counting the colours of life... as much as I'm counting, I'm becoming more and more amazed...)

kitne partein kitne pardey... aur pardon ke peechhe pardey

aur pardon ke par kahin par ...dard chhupaa hai ...ghau chhupey hain

(size does matter but the size of the emotion hidden behind the 'measurable size', if one cane able to measure, matters more...)

raaz kayee dabe paaon ghuse hai
jaan-ke bhi anjaan hai hum sab
paagal ya nadaan hai hum sab
paagal ya nadaan hai hum sab

hey kaala kaala kaala bandar
bahar hai ya andar
hey kaala kaala kaala bandar
lo dhoondhe sikander…

i like the kaala bandar since he came along
things changed... many things have been arranged
there’s more police in the streets ( so many moral policing by my side)
so i feel safe at night when i go to sleep!
now we always got electricity
so i never miss my favourite show on TV! ( how would I miss? I have nothing to do except the job and the ...)
i’m happy with the bandar
as long as he don’t get me
he can stay even longer
it don’t bother me
bandar kaala bandar don’t go way
bandar kaala bandar i beg you to stay

Two Faces of mine...

Beh jaa, beh jaa.... Chal tod kinaare ko,
Beh jaa, beh jaa.... dhar le majdhaare ko,
Chingaari uda ke raakh se,

ek boond gira ke aankh se,
Chalne ka ishara kar gaya...

whose favour happened on my rough life,
a light shower fell on my dry life,
I have fear someone doesn't steal tomorrow-
these stolen clouds from my sky,
(and) if someone does, it'll be a kindness
the two identities of my face...

( copied from some lyrics... I can't remember from which..., I just believe in the lines...)